Angry woman

Now you did it

Tried to take me and tear me in two

Tried to make me feel "inferior"

But instead you've awoken my fury

Brought out the angry woman

Who had once lain dormant

See, before you

She was content to only come out

When I needed to be avenged

Or just reminded of the struggles of the past

But now she wide awake

And you... Silly you

You have decided to be in the direct path

The direct path of her rage

Didn't you know that she would come out?

Didn't you realize that she was just

Biding her time until you slipped up?

Now I can't tell her to go back to sleep

And I don't think that I want to

Because within that glorious rage

That only comes when she's awake

I can finally find the courage

The courage to say: "Enough is enough

I will not be that fool again."

Letting you toy with my heart

Making me feel incomplete

Inadequate, undone.

Because no I'm angry

I'm indignant!

To think that I let you

You... Have that kind of control.

My heart has bled

My soul almost hemorrhaged

And I was almost completely damaged

But then she woke up

And I became an angry woman.

So this angry woman

Has something to say to you.

" I'm done... with you.

I'm utterly and completely through."

Best believe I'm done

And I won't be coming back.

Because see

She reminded me that

I am more important than this relationship

I am the one that needs to keep my head up.

Because by divine decree

I've been set for greatness

Greatness in love.

A love that is all encompassing

A love that goes deeper than lust

Farther than the physical

I'm destined for happiness.

But the only to do that

Is to let you see

You don't control me.

And even though I'm angry

I don't want to stay angry.

But for now

I'm gonna let that angry woman

Stay wide awake and alert

Because she reminds me to guard my heart

And for that I'll stay angry

Because I know

I deserve a fighting chance.

And I will fight you for it

And until I'm fully free

Angry I'll stay,

Angry I'll be.

To The Least of These...

You fell…

I looked out to you

Trying to decide

“Should I go to you,

Make myself a ridicule

Just so I can help you?”

Those around me…

Looked on in contempt

Thinking that they were

Of a superior metal

Unable to bend…

To give a helping hand.

They jeered, you coward.

I stood in indecision

For only a moment.

The moment was long enough

Enough to help me to see.

What if it was me?

Would I expect a helping hand?

Would I wish or someone… anyone

To give me a moment of their time?

Without further hesitation

I gave you my hand

Offered you a smile

Then went my way,

Thinking nothing more of it.

How was I to know?

How could I have seen?

Known that because of one like you

Salvation I might find.

And again…

There you were

Around you the crowd was… laughing

They jeered and they mocked you

There was no one around

No body there to defend you.

I stood off to the side… thinking

“What am I gonna do?

Do I follow the status quo

And make myself “one of the masses”

Or do I, walking the path less taken

Do I take that moment

And come to your aid?

Wouldn’t I expect the same?”

I stopped… had to think.

What am I gonna do?

Too many voices

Talking too loudly.

Trying to convince me to…

Just let it be.

But I couldn’t just leave you there.

Something inside said…

“ Go… Help…”

So I did… one more time…

Time, the end of time.

The end was here and I

Finding myself before The One

And recognizing just His Eyes, said:

“Lord, I’m not worthy.

To be allowed into your glory.

Never having been one to talk out

Be the center of attention

I feel I did so little…”

He smiled.

Those eyes lit up.

“Oh but don’t you remember

Those times your gave me your help

Gave me a smile and a hand of support”

Surprised… I thought:

But when did I ever see You to do it?

To my unspoken query

He replied;

“Did you not help a fall one

To get back on her feet when others

Just… passed her by?

“… Yes.” I replied. “But…”

“Did you not stand up for him

When others mocked and jeered.

Did you not stand for that helpless one?”

Startle, again.. “Yes,” I said.

With the tenderness that

Only one who understood

Could give to one who needed understanding

He put His arms around me,

Ushering me into glory.

He whispered in my ear

“You belong here.

Because  you did it for Me.

Don’t you remember the teaching?

If you did this to the least of these…

You did it unto me.”

I Am Blessed

I Am Blessed.

My life has been touched

Touched by the essence of heaven

Wrapped in the ever lasting love.

I Am Blessed.

Blessed by the Omnipresent

Favored by the Ominiscient

Given blessing to overflowing.

I Am Blessed.

Given the history of what has been

Gifted with the understanding of what is

And bestowed with the knowledge of what is to come.

I Am Blessed.

Highly favored in His eyes

Consecrated by His singular sacrifice.

Hallowed by His eternal gift.

I Am Blessed.

Set apart before birth

Chosen by Him for greatness

Anointed in His cleansing flow.

I Am Blessed.

As I awoke this morning.

As i moved throughout the day

And now as I lay me to sleep at night.

I Am Blessed.

I Am Blessed.

I Am Blessed.

Oh, so very blessed.

Just saying...

Hey you.

Yes you.

Give me a break.

Stop try'na make me see you.

Trust me,

I see you.

Doing what you do.

You give me a head ache.

Making so much noise,

And wanting all my attention.

I'm looking at you.

I've noticed what you do.

I understand, see?

But you?

You are making me insane.

Runnin' around

Tryin to get the world to "see you".

Are you kidding me?

Do you really think that

All that motion and commotion

Will really get you anywhere

If you don't have a set destination?

Stop for a second.

Take a look around.

The world around you

Doesn't need more noise.

It needs silence

So that the sound of life

Can come through more easily.

Do you see what I'm saying?

I'm just saying that you

Flailing and flapping

Jumpin and jivin'

Won't make much of a difference

Unless you focus.

Because trust

I see you

And with a little finesse

The world will see you too.

So do me a favor

Quiet down a little bit.

Just because you're making noise

Doesn't mean you're saying anything.

Take a minute to think

Do us all a favor and try

Please use your head.

Don't waste our time.

We are waiting

For you to shine.

So like I said.

With a little bit of grace

You'll do fine.

But for the good of all mankind

Do not waste my time.

I'm just saying.

I Am Woman

I will not be oppressed.

Look at you

Try'na figure out my bra size

The shape of my hips

And if I'll let you between my thighs

I'm more than that.

The struggle of the "man"

Has always been documented

All the pain supplemented

By the knowledge that you

Will get your remunerations.

But woman continues to be oppressed.

Looked over for the best job

The hottest spot

And asked to "put out" to get what she wants.

But I refuse to be of that statistic

One more colored woman just about to miss it.

Don't try to tell me that I've got it made

"Find a good man live in the shade"

But what if I want to be independent?

Will you still look at me in a demeaning way?

Tell me that, "Girl, in the house is where you should stay"?

The divas before me paved the way

They said it was okay

To want to prove myself

To extend my wings and fly.

I will not be denied

Even though I may be considered

A second class citizen

I will prove my worth and leave no question

That like Dr. Maya Angelou said

"Still I rise."

Rise above the oppression

Above the proclamation that being female

I am inadequate

Above the innuendo and defamation

That the world throws my way.

I will never be less

I will always be more

For the power I possess

Many want... but none can store.

Don't tell me I can't do do it

And don't put boundaries to my climb.

Just because I'm a woman

Doesn't mean that I'm weak

It just means that my strength

It just comes from way, way deep.

So woman lift your head

walk about strong and proud

Don't allow those out there

To bring you down

Remember that you are the jewel

You hold the prize

And you are truly amazing

In God's loving eyes.

I am woman.

I won't be oppressed

I won't be denied.

Y Fue Asi

Y fue asi

Cuando tocaste mi corazón

La electricidad que corrió

Fue como la sangre que fluye por mis venas

Y me hace vivir.

Fue tan real

El toque de tus palabras

En este ser sediento

Como espera la tierra la lluvia

Para revivir lo que esta casi muerto.

Y fue asi

En lo que senti

Tu esencia me lleno

De manera que nada mas importaba

Y solo tu eras real.

All that You Are

All I needed was one moment

One moment to take in you essence

To learn why you are as you are.

How can I measure the parts of you that

Being so innately you

Cause my heart to leap and skip for joy?

I cannot, for all the time under the heavens

Take back the moment that you,

Being just as you are,

Crept into that spot in my heart

That was made in the shape of you.

The moment I realized that,

Because you are as you are,

You took me by surprise

Engulfing me in new sensations I’ve never felt

Was the moment that my heart beat anew,

Falling into the syncopation that matched so perfectly

That beating that is who you are.

And even now as I,

Knowing entirely the truth of you,

Put my ear to your chest

To listen to that firm beating that I so dearly love,

I can’t help but marvel

As one may do with a new child,

How wondrous this feeling is.

The feeling that knowing you,

And what is essentially you,

I have been given the gift I so longed for,

The one that I held out for.

And as that moment of understanding dawns

And I am once again allowed to be near you

I see what you are, I understand it

And I know that what you are,

All that you are,

Is what I need, and what I want.

And I no longer search anymore.

Rhythm in Me

I breathe

My breath catches in my chest

My heart beats the rhythm

The Rhythm with in me

The one that moves me.

The pulse of life flows

Movin' me in the direction

The direction of true livin'

And when as my blood flows

The Rhythm shakes me

Sends me to motion.

The ebb and flow

The come and go

The movement that connects

That makes my body sway

To the Rhythm within

The ticky tock of life.

The rhythm moves me

Connects with the world

Movin' in the syncopation

The articulation of emotion

That sways me into the flow

To the rhythm of life.

Just Breathe...

Take a moment

Close your eyes

Inhale deeply

Just breathe...

Around you the world is moving,

You need to just stand still

Take a second to contemplate

Just breathe...

Too many moments

May pass you by

If you don't stop in your tracks

Just breathe...

Know that if you're moving

Too quickly to see

That you're life is leaving you need to

Just breathe...

So take a moment

Take an eternity if you must

But stop long enough to

Just... Breathe.

Even if...

Even if time were to stop

And begin to turn backwards

Giving me a glimpse of all the things

I should have seen before

And give me a chance

To change things that might have hurt

And get a do over on others

Would I change anything?

Would I take the opposite route?

Would I make a different choice?

And when I were given a chance

To relive certain moments in my life

And to do something different,

And to move in a different path

Would I move more cautiously?

Would I change my mind?

Would I make a different choice?

Even if time would turn around.

Even if I could start over

I'd do things the same way

Make the same choices again.

I'd give my heart

I'd love as deeply

I'd go the same path

I'd walk the same distance.

And even though

Changing things might be better

I wouldn't change a thing.

Because being who I am is better

Even if there is pain.

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel

As I look around this place

That things could be different

And I could be changed.

And sometimes I search

Looking for the truth

For it to be apparent to me

And I can't be sure that it is.

Sometimes I try

To Capture the gift given

Not taking it for granted

And knowing how to appreciate it.

Sometimes I delve

Deeply into my soul

Wondering who I am

And why I should even be here.

Sometimes I yearn

For those things left behind

For the touch almost forgotten

And for joy to prevail once again.

And then sometimes

I just sit alone

Wondering where life will take me

And if I'll be prepared to handle it.

Second Chances

Second chances are

Like a kiss of the breeze

Like a note of acceptance.

Second chances are

Like a glance from the side

Like a moment of repentance.

Second chances are

Like taking another breath

Like re-entering the dance.

Second chances are

Like finally being bold

Like realizing your relevance.

Second chances are

The bright spot of my day

The moment of nuance.

Second chances are

The sad smile on your lips

The gift of allowance.

Second chances are

My full discretion speech

My time of brilliance.

Second chances are

A gift not always deserved

A gift of tolerance.

Second chances.

Thank God for them

For what it takes to give them: valiance.

I didn't know

I didn't know.

I didn't know that

My lack of actions could hurt

The one I never would have hurt.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that you

Of all people

Would be holding out for me, when I asked you not to.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that we

Would fall apart at the seams

Never once getting a chance to change things.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that this

Would be the breaking point

In all the things that I held true and dear.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that now

Would be the moment that I

Must learn to let you go, and be free to yourself.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that time

Would become the enemy

I wanted to bring in as a true friend.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that this

Could be as difficult

As giving up a piece of me.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that being

Blind to all things would be

The sin that shattered our world.

I wish I could say

That not knowing

Was what made it all come to pieces.

But knowing is only half the battle.

I didn't know.

I didn't know.

I didn't know.

But I wish, I had...

Ivis S.

You Don't Know Me

You don't know me.

I'm a diffr'nt girl than I was.

I'm no longer a girl.

I've become a woman.

You don't know me.

I've changed in so many ways.

I've morphed into something new.

I've become a flower.

You don't know me.

I've taken on so many things

New challenges have been conquered.

I have become a fighter.

You don't know me.

I've walked a million miles.

I've gone the distance and beyond.

I've become a discoverer.

You don't know me.

I've sat in misery and cried.

I've lived the pain of many millenia.

I've become a survivor.

You don't know me.

I've said it before.

And yet you listen.

You listen to my sadness.

You've shared my pain.

You've walked along side of me.

You've held my hand.

I say that you don't know me.

I guess that's not true.

Maybe, just maybe, you do...

Falling...

Falling...

Falling into the memories

Falling into the embrace.

Falling..

What a feeling

Of freeing and fleeing.

Falling...

Taking that first step

Taking the first breath.

Take a deep breath.

Take that first step.

And then you will begin

Falling...

Falling...

Towards the earth,

Towards you.

Falling...

Slowly making my way

Slowly dipping down.

Breathe it all in.

Inhale the sensation.

You are Falling.

Falling...

Oh the rush.

Oh the sensation.

And while falling

Remember that there are arms

Arms to catch you.

So go ahead

Keep on...

Falling...

I'm waiting...

I'm waiting

For the world to turn

And for my life to start.

For all those pieces to come together

I'm waiting

For the right time to come

And for my heart to fall

And for love to enter into this place.

I'm waiting

For you to realize this.

And for you to come

To tell me what your heart already knows.

I'm waiting

For the moon to shine

And for the earth to spin

And for our hearts to finally intertwine.

I'm waiting

For you to notice me

And for all the things you promised

For all the sweet nothings to come true.

I'm waiting

For you to realized that I'm here

And that I make you complete

And that all you need is me.

I'm waiting.

Can't you see me here?

For I continue waiting.

Until the moment you say to me....

"I've been waiting too."

And still...

I'm waiting.

Waiting...

Just for you.

When Shall I know?

Many times I look around

The world is crazy and wild.

How shall I know where?

When can I know how?

Too many things hinder me

They pull me in all directions.

How can I be sure?

When shall I know?

When will I know

The path that You've chosen?

How can I be sure

That this is where You lead me?

When will I see

The plans you have for me?

How can I know

That You are the one who leads me?

When shall I know

The end of my journey?

And how can I see

What you already see in me?

These are my questions,

And I ask you to tell.

When shall I know?

For I am here, waiting.

Who am I

Who am I?

I am strength.

I am energy.

I am the ability to think.

I am goodness, justice, mercy.

In me.

There is all things pure.

All things of good nature.

I am the song that is sung.

Who am I?

I am yet to be finished.

I am the unsung hero.

I am the right one.

I do not cling.

I do not beg.

I take no prisoners,

And ask no questions.

I give no explanations.

I hold close what I love.

I shut out what may harm.

I put my life down for others.

I give back what hasn't been given to me.

Who am I?

I am the air you breath.

I am that which you see.

I am the one who knows.

Who am I?

I am what you see.

Ivis S.

Tiempo...

Tiempo

Un momento solo

Un pensamiento electrico.

Buscando esa chispa

Que me ayuda entender.

Tiempo

Algo que necesito

Algo que me deja

Siento...

Si solo tuviera mas

Tiempo.

Pido

Tiempo

Un momento solo.

Un instante

Donde puedo entender

El plan que tienes para mi.

Tiempo.

Esto solo

Pido que me des

Para poder ver

La grandeza de Tus planes.

Tiempo

Para ver

Lo que quieres hacer en mi.

Dame

Tiempo...

Marca mis pasos.

Formame a Tu imagen.

Para que pueda ver

Que es tu plan.

Y atravez

Del tiempo

Vere Tu poder.

Y entonces tendre

Tiempo.

Ivis S.

These are my thoughts....

Music

It has filled me

With a longing to know

What lies beyond

Beyond the lines and lyric

What is on the other side?

How can I connect

Not knowing where it came from?

How do I make it mine?

My thoughts bring a song

A song that shows my heart.

Let me show you my heart.

Will you listen to my heartstrings

Playing the melody that is my life?

These are my thoughts.

Thoughts that bring me closer to you.

You who know me so well.

These are my thoughts.