Even if...

Even if time were to stop

And begin to turn backwards

Giving me a glimpse of all the things

I should have seen before

And give me a chance

To change things that might have hurt

And get a do over on others

Would I change anything?

Would I take the opposite route?

Would I make a different choice?

And when I were given a chance

To relive certain moments in my life

And to do something different,

And to move in a different path

Would I move more cautiously?

Would I change my mind?

Would I make a different choice?

Even if time would turn around.

Even if I could start over

I'd do things the same way

Make the same choices again.

I'd give my heart

I'd love as deeply

I'd go the same path

I'd walk the same distance.

And even though

Changing things might be better

I wouldn't change a thing.

Because being who I am is better

Even if there is pain.

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel

As I look around this place

That things could be different

And I could be changed.

And sometimes I search

Looking for the truth

For it to be apparent to me

And I can't be sure that it is.

Sometimes I try

To Capture the gift given

Not taking it for granted

And knowing how to appreciate it.

Sometimes I delve

Deeply into my soul

Wondering who I am

And why I should even be here.

Sometimes I yearn

For those things left behind

For the touch almost forgotten

And for joy to prevail once again.

And then sometimes

I just sit alone

Wondering where life will take me

And if I'll be prepared to handle it.

Second Chances

Second chances are

Like a kiss of the breeze

Like a note of acceptance.

Second chances are

Like a glance from the side

Like a moment of repentance.

Second chances are

Like taking another breath

Like re-entering the dance.

Second chances are

Like finally being bold

Like realizing your relevance.

Second chances are

The bright spot of my day

The moment of nuance.

Second chances are

The sad smile on your lips

The gift of allowance.

Second chances are

My full discretion speech

My time of brilliance.

Second chances are

A gift not always deserved

A gift of tolerance.

Second chances.

Thank God for them

For what it takes to give them: valiance.

I didn't know

I didn't know.

I didn't know that

My lack of actions could hurt

The one I never would have hurt.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that you

Of all people

Would be holding out for me, when I asked you not to.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that we

Would fall apart at the seams

Never once getting a chance to change things.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that this

Would be the breaking point

In all the things that I held true and dear.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that now

Would be the moment that I

Must learn to let you go, and be free to yourself.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that time

Would become the enemy

I wanted to bring in as a true friend.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that this

Could be as difficult

As giving up a piece of me.

I didn't know.

I didn't know that being

Blind to all things would be

The sin that shattered our world.

I wish I could say

That not knowing

Was what made it all come to pieces.

But knowing is only half the battle.

I didn't know.

I didn't know.

I didn't know.

But I wish, I had...

Ivis S.

You Don't Know Me

You don't know me.

I'm a diffr'nt girl than I was.

I'm no longer a girl.

I've become a woman.

You don't know me.

I've changed in so many ways.

I've morphed into something new.

I've become a flower.

You don't know me.

I've taken on so many things

New challenges have been conquered.

I have become a fighter.

You don't know me.

I've walked a million miles.

I've gone the distance and beyond.

I've become a discoverer.

You don't know me.

I've sat in misery and cried.

I've lived the pain of many millenia.

I've become a survivor.

You don't know me.

I've said it before.

And yet you listen.

You listen to my sadness.

You've shared my pain.

You've walked along side of me.

You've held my hand.

I say that you don't know me.

I guess that's not true.

Maybe, just maybe, you do...